The other day, there was a plate of freshly baked cookies on
my in-laws counter just sitting there, untouched. They were big, chunky
chocolate chip, chewy looking cookies that I just couldn’t resist. Now, I’d
like to preface this with the fact that I’m more of a cake and pie kind of
girl, cookies are at the bottom of my sweets totem pole, but that’s how good
these looked. I had to have them. I placed three on a plate and warmed them to
the perfect temperature- firm enough to dunk but soft enough to melt in your
mouth. I poured myself a mug of cold milk, and gloated in the fact that I would
be the first to indulge in these chocolaty delights.
I grabbed my first cookie. I dunked. I stuffed the whole
thing in my mouth at once. And then- I realized.
Those were not gooey, chocolaty chips smattered about my delicious
cookies, they were RAISINS.
I wanted to throw these deceivingly inedible morsels in the
garbage. But these were not my cookies, nor was I eating them at my counter, leaving
me to abide by the etiquette of eating at someone else’s house. I choked down the
remaining two raisin infested cookies, which no longer deserved the sacred name
of cookie. Baked raisin dough balls
seemed a more appropriate title. Dehydrated grapes do not belong on anything
besides an overheated, under watered vineyard fence.
Then I realized something impossible.
These weren’t that
bad. They were actually kind of.. good.
I was surprised that my taste buds were no longer rejecting
the shriveled little monsters. I took a few moments to appreciate that miracle.
Eventually, I dug through the pantry until I found the holy grail of all things
sweet- a bag of straight chocolate chips, and I helped myself to 3 handfuls a
few.
Now, it’s not that I don’t like the raisins themselves. I
actually quite enjoy the little raisin filled boxes typically paired with a juice box from my childhood. I just wasn’t
expecting them, I was expecting chocolate chips. It was then that my brain
created a slightly farfetched metaphor, but a metaphor none the less. I started
to think of all the things I’m striving for right now, all of the things I
think I want and need, or in food metaphor talk- the chocolate chips of life.
But, I somehow keep getting raisins. It’s not that the raisins aren’t good,
they just aren’t what I’m expecting, or what I think I want. It always takes a
while, but then I realize that the raisins of life really aren’t that bad, if
fact, they turn out to be really pretty good. And in reality, they are probably
better for me. I just need to learn to appreciate the raisins, and once the
chocolate chips come, they are that much sweeter.
I’ve been trying to be grateful for all of those raisins in my
life, and it’s really not as hard as I thought. I still pray for chocolate
chips to come pouring into my life (both literally and metaphorically speaking)
but now, by having and appreciating the raisins first, they are that much better.
Hopefully my food metaphors will also get better, but until then- i'll start
enjoying those raisins.